thank you, i shall!
just going out in general… crowded places, hot weather, strangers - they are like only a few of the things that trigger my panic attacks, going with people sometimes makes me feel worse cause im like shit theyre going to freak out cause im freaking out ahaha. i dunno, i tried it for a little while but it didnt help so much, it means a lot youre helping though youre cute x
yes i am, ive tried a lot of things but nothing really seems to be working and it just seems to be getting worse and worse and worse and it makes me feel sad and pathetic and i think you know cause you follow my “other other” blog but i want to kill myself a lot and i dont particulary want to live how i am now but i try lots of things and they dont help and im a little stuck for how i should help myself, like recently i havent been able to have a trip to my local store which ive been going to since i was like 4 without having a really bad panic attack and ugh im so done with them :-(
i really wish it was that easy… i have far too many triggers for that to work for me, thanks for the advice though, it might help someone else following me! :-) x
Down In The Valley - The Head & The Heart
These are the places you will find me hiding
These are the places I will always go
same i couldnt believe how many people said they related to it i thought i was crazy or something
this is going to sound weird but like does anyone else see things in certain colours, like the best way i can explain is through this example - when i talk to my girlfriend or see her, i see her as blue (like not physically, her skin isn’t blue, she is just…blue) and its the same for other people and i can just tell what person theyre going to be from their colour okay this is really fucking weird and i never talk about it im praying someone else will say they do too bye
i totally do this!!!!!!
but not just with people, like with subjects and places and things and animals and appliances and yes im not alone
im reading through all the responses now and its so interesting im so glad im not the only one!!
guUuUUUurl dont you worry ive been there before, literally just this valentines a guy asked me to the movies and i was like “yeah man” because i thought he meant as friends but then he kept like touching my leg and putting his arm around me and i like freaked out because i have panic attacks sometimes when strangers touch me and i was like “HA HA HA LOOK HOW HOT THE WOMAN ON THE SCREEN IS HOLD ON LET ME TEXT THE GIRL I FANCY HA HA HA :-)” because im not into confrontation so i didnt want to start an argument or something. anyway, the moral of the story is DONT GO because it will be uncomfortable as fuck and you wont enjoy it if he makes a move on you because it’ll be awkward. just say to him straight up that youre busy and are “seeing someone else”, even if its a lie it’ll get him off youre back for a while, or just tell him youre not ready to start dating people yet. stay calm love it’ll be fine :)
i read this and was like what the hell i didnt say it as a sin to be gay u little shit but then i realised this was a message to last nights anon oops
oh really? thats super interesting!!! its so weird because i spent my life thinking i was just weird but now people are saying they’ve had similar experiences and i feel better haha
probably not love. the best piece of advice i got when i came out and was terrified of telling my mother was from my nana who said “at the end of the day, im going to be mad at you if you end up depressed and married to a man just because you want to please your mum when by the time you get older she will die and you will be left with a life you hate and no one left to please, you deserve to be happy with someone who makes you happy”. now im not saying you should come out to your mum now, im just saying there are options and if it doesnt go away its nothing to be terrified of, do what makes you happy and i know how easy that is to say but its true
hmm, a lot of people are replying to the post saying it could be synesthesia but idk cause i just looked and theirs not a lot about being able to see colours in people ugh its so weird
this is going to sound weird but like does anyone else see things in certain colours, like the best way i can explain is through this example - when i talk to my girlfriend or see her, i see her as blue (like not physically, her skin isn’t blue, she is just…blue) and its the same for other people and i can just tell what person theyre going to be from their colour okay this is really fucking weird and i never talk about it im praying someone else will say they do too bye
